Hi all.
I'm sitting here in front of the laptop and feel like I'm having all the time in the world to surf the net.
The reason for this it that my little lad is sleeping soundly in daddy's arms.
And will probably continue to do so until we need to wake him for a feed.
Yes, that's correct, we need to WAKE him for a feed as he doesn't makes much of a noise of telling us when he's hungry. This might change but for the moment he must be the easiest baby to care for in the world. :D
Anyway, let's tell the story of his big entrance as I remember it...
On Monday, the 26th of May, at around 11 in the morning, whilst still in bed, I felt something wet between my legs but was pretty sure I hadn't pee myself.
I got up and decided to stay up just in case something was going on but once I got up it all felt pretty normal.
Mr. T was on early morning and would be on his way home in just over an hour or so.
But just a short while after being in the kitchen I felt more of a little drizzle coming out.
Thinking this must be it I called the hospital and got to talk to a midwife who said I'd better come in just to be checked out.
I always had this strange feeling of having him early but at 37+2 wasn't what I expected though.
I called Mr. T and told him about the water and that he'd better get home. I could clearly hear the panic in his voice but told him to relax as I felt really calm myself.
When he arrived I told him to relax and have a quick shower before going into hospital.
That would not only make him feel better but also wake him up as he'd be in for a long period of being awake as he's got up around 2.30am in the morning for work.
Once in hospital I was examined and they confirmed that the water had indeed broken.
The normal routine for this scenario is to send the mother home and come back 24 hours later to be induced in case the labour hasn't started by itself by then.
However, as I had a bit of a temperature they suspected that I had an infection and therefore should be starting labour asap.
So that was basically it. No time to wait around and think about it. Specially as I've been tested positive for GBS earlier it was important not to let the time between the breaking of the water and the birth to last longer than 24 hours as this would increase the risk of infection.
I was then taken to the labour ward and put on an oxytocin drip to start my contractions.
Then we waited and waited and waited.
Day became afternoon which then became evening before my contraction finally started to get a bit more strong and regular.
I met 3 different midwives during those hours and was very pleased to find out that the last one (also the nicest) was to stay on her shift until 8 the morning after which meant she was the one to deliver my baby. I also got asked if it was okay for me to have a student in the room for the labour and I didn't mind so we also had a young lad there who was studying to become a doctor.
As the contractions got more frequent and stronger I decided to try out the "gas and air" thing.
So far breathing through the contractions was enough but I really wanted to see if it became easier with the "laughing gas".
It did took the edge of the contractions and for a good few hours I used this as the pain grew stronger.
I could hear other people screaming in the rooms next door and that was a bit unpleasant I must say but what can you do.
The midwife asked me if I wanted an epidural after a while when she saw that the pain was getting worse. I felt okay with only the gas at that stage and decline the epidural and I was also a bit stubborn as I felt like a little pain is only good for you. No pain, no gain.
But only a few more minutes after declining the epidural the contractions became really intense and really uncomfortable. I breathed the gas as much as I could and bet the mouth piece to cope.
It's really fascinating how quickly the contractions increased.
I was now more or less squirming like a worm and finally asked for the epidural.
The midwife said that I was really doing a great job as I've coped without it for so long as she said that some women ask for them almost straight away.
Of course by this time the other women in labour also seemed to have asked for one so the anesthetist was a bit queued up bit I was told I was next.
I can tell you that that bit of a wait was probably the longest of my life... ha,ha.. at least it seemed like it. But finally I was given the injection and the pain was no more.
I could relax and breath through the contractions again without the gas and air but still feel the sensation of a bit of pain. Perfect!
I was dilating as I should which was good as if I wouldn't they'd given me an caesarean section within a certain hours.
But finally I've reached the 10 cm I needed and was ready to bring the little one into the world.
I couldn't wait to start pushing. I could still feel the contractions with a bit of pain and I think this was great as I've ready that so many women doesn't feel the contractions or pain at all and therefore the likelihood of an instrumental delivery (ventouse, forceps or/and episiotomy) increases.
After only 5 pushes he was born at 03.40am on the 27th of May. Amazing! He weighed 3009 gram.
I didn't tore or felt pain too bad. There is a stinging sensation when the head is on it's way out but in my case it was not to bad at all. If this was down to the epidural I don't know but it was good.
Mr. T cut the cord and got to see the baby before he was put onto my chest for a 20 minute cuddle.
But here is where the rosy text book labour ends.
The third stage of the labour is where you deliver the placenta.
Usually you get a drip to make the uterus to contract and deliver the placenta within 10-15 min.
But in my case this drip did not work! No placenta was seen.
I had a horrible feeling of this would happened as it was the same when I had Milo.
The worse thing was that I had by now started to bleed a lot and I could see that the midwife got concerned and other midwives came into the room.
After a while longer a doctor appeared and I heard them talking about taking me asap to the (operating) theatre.
From then on it's a bit of a blur but Mr.T said that I apparently had a seizure due to the loss of blood. I remember kind of falling asleep and then waking up again.
They took me to the theatre and I was given a top up of the epidural.
I remember feeling the doctor "poking" around inside my tummy as they had to manually remove the placenta in order to stop the bleeding.
I think I drifted in and out of consciousness but I remember seeing a lot of bloody things being around.
After finally given the all cleared and the blood loss stopped I was wheeled into the recovery room.
I feel asleep but only to wake up 5 minutes later. i kept doing this for at least two hours while I was in there.
I was shaking uncontrollably and this was due to the epidural wearing off I was told.
Mr. T and Leon came in to see me. Mr. T was very worried and I must admit that so was I when it was most critical.
I remember thinking that I didn't want to die now that Leon was here.
Apparently I've also said so.
Anyway, I was laying in the recovery room for a few hours before being well enough to be wheeled to the post natal ward.
There was a VERY tired Mr.T waiting for me with baby Leon.
Mr. T had at this stage been up for over 27 hours and was crying out for a sleep.
He then left and me and baby Leon finally got to see each other again.
But from here my memory is a bit blurred. I can't remember much of what happened.
I was wheeled in to the ward at approx 6.30am and I remember getting brekkie at 8am.
The reason for remembering this was that I was really hungry by now as I hadn't eaten since god knows when as we left home before I even got a glass of juice in my tummy.
And because of they not knowing if I would need a caesarean I wasn't allowed food during labour.
But I must admit that I had an odd Kit Kat before being told not to eat anything.
And being in labour on an empty tummy isn't ideal I think. And then the blood loss on top of that.
Anyway. Things felt okay once the day progressed. I held my little boy and tried to breastfeed him but this didn't worked out too well.
He was more happy to smile at me than latch on to the breast.
At first the staff didn't seem to worried as he had good blood sugar levels after being in the womb so he was fine without feeding for time being.
Unfortunately the next day and night was the same. They now started to check how often he fed and if his nappy was soiled.
He did have that first "meconium poo" and a wee but the feeding didn't pick up.
To sum up what happen after that...
He had a little bit of jaundice (Swedish: Gulsot) and that also affected his blood levels that got worse.
He lost weight and they didn't wanted him to loose more now but he did.
And the fact that he wasn't feeding well probably made matters worse.
I thought that we'd go home but as he wasn't well he was taken to Neonatal Ward to be given light therapy for the jaundice and to improve the blood levels.
I was probably getting the baby blues and the lack of sleep got to me and I was crying as I didn't wanted to stay another night, especially on the ward with Leon on another.
They said that of course could I go home and come back the day after.
I was so relieved to hear that but to leave my baby in the hospital was heartbreaking although it was what he needed.
The hardest part was that it felt like a bit of deja vu.
This was the second time, within a year, that I left the maternity hospital without a baby.
I can tell you that doesn't feel good at all.
But at least this time my baby was alive and was going to be fine.
So today after doing some shopping in town, got a breast pump and bottles to make feeding easier, we went to the hospital to check on Leon.
I've been very tired all day and dizzy. My blood levels are not good due to the heavy blood loss, I lost a litre of blood that night, and the docs said before that if I ever felt dizzy I might need a blood transfusion.
This actually scares me and is something I really don't want to I kept a pretty good face when they asked me today again.
But I do feel better now so I think I'm on the mend.
The good news of us being able to bring little Leon home was the best thing I ever heard.
We've taken the bus into town so Mr. T was quick to go home again and get the car to come and pick us up.
I stayed with Leon in the neonatal ward and was able to breastfeed him a bit but also give him a little bottle of formula that he's on from now on.
Phew... I've been sitting here typing this stuff for quite a while now.
Leon's in bed and I should go to as I need to have fed him again before 4 am again. Then it's daddy's shift.
There's more to tell but for now this is it.
Take Care!
/Jess























